Why does my attitude/personality change so much?

Jul 2020
1
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Argentina
Hi. I am a male almost 25 years old and I have read a lot about psychology to understand myself because I notice that my personality and/or attitude changes based on triggers. My case is as follows: I have triggers that make my attitude and/or personality change. Some of my triggers are: my energy levels, certain songs, the circumstances, the context, conversations, facial expressions, thoughts, etc. For example: When I have low energy levels, or sometimes when I see my cat and/or dog, or if I happen to see a child's programs like “Peppa Pig”, my voice and personality switches to that of a child. On the other hand, if my energy levels are high, or if someone/something makes me angry, or if I hear an aggressive song, my voice and personality switches to very dominant and aggressive. It’s important to clarify that when my attitude and/or personality changes I always remember everything and have no amnesia. The personality switches occur as soon as there's a trigger. For example, if I am on a nightclub and a song has an aggressive beat to it, I switch instantly to that very dominant and aggressive personality until the song ends (meanwhile that aggressive song plays I start approaching the opposite sex with total confidence, I just make very strong eye contact and start making out with them). It’s worth mentioning that when I get angry I become and feel very aggressive to the point of feeling possessed (while in that state I have very strong feelings of power and omnipotence which make me feel like a God). Because of that, many times in the past I could have gotten in big trouble with the law but luckily I never went to jail because even when angry I am still logical to a certain extent so I don’t do anything that bad. Just to add, I have gone to many psychologists/psychiatrists in the past but they never helped me understand myself, instead they just wanted me to take medications which I never wanted to because I don’t really need them since I am a very logical person. As far as any past traumas from childhood, when I was a child and my mom would take me to school and then leave me, I would get very sad and start crying a lot because I didn’t want her to leave so I do think that could have affected me as a traumatic experience. Also, my changes in attitude and/or personality doesn’t really bother me at all. I just always wanted to know what my case is about (out of curiosity). Let me know what you think. Thanks in advance.
 
Aug 2020
9
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Spain
Seems you have experience and acceptance.
Control the aggressive pattern is one of my targets. Why ? . Mainly because affects me directly. Don't make me happy.
Also I am trying to obtain pleasure.
Best Regards