So hello guys I am 20 years old.
I live in Germany.
I have a hard time to find a profession.
Not only because of the paradox of choice, but because I have this urge to pursue everything I see that I find interest in I like rap music so I thought about starting to rap, I like teaching and learning I thought about being a teacher, I love doing justice to everyone who is mistreated I thought about becoming a police officer etc. But yesterday I became so annoyed because I feel like I waste time doing everything.
But choosing a path to pursue.
I watched UFC with a friend of mine and suddenly I thought about how cool it would be to do MMA although I hate fighting and violence but I always empathize with the situations given to me and put myself in the place of for example like yesterday’s match. What would I do if I were to go inside a octagon? Would it make me happy? Could I ever be good enough? So I end up doing nothing! I become depressed till I see something new that catches my eye and I shine for a second just to become depressed again. My anxieties get worse the more I think about the future..
I thought about starting to stream because of my love of gaming, I started to think about doing a podcast because I love philosophizing and talking about many topics. I started thinking about activism because I am a person of color confronted with racism like everyday. I stand for the LGBTQ+ community and Co-launched marches. The list goes on and on. Yet I’m sitting here writing this words In hopes that someone explains to me why I do this to understand my thought and maybe control or stop to do so. Is there any psychological explanation for the „desire to pursue everything“. What can I do about it? How can I find what fulfills me in a depressing world were social media makes you feel like you ain’t nothing but a piece of shit because you’re not rich or successful by the age of 16 or own your own house at the age of 20...
I live in Germany.
I have a hard time to find a profession.
Not only because of the paradox of choice, but because I have this urge to pursue everything I see that I find interest in I like rap music so I thought about starting to rap, I like teaching and learning I thought about being a teacher, I love doing justice to everyone who is mistreated I thought about becoming a police officer etc. But yesterday I became so annoyed because I feel like I waste time doing everything.
But choosing a path to pursue.
I watched UFC with a friend of mine and suddenly I thought about how cool it would be to do MMA although I hate fighting and violence but I always empathize with the situations given to me and put myself in the place of for example like yesterday’s match. What would I do if I were to go inside a octagon? Would it make me happy? Could I ever be good enough? So I end up doing nothing! I become depressed till I see something new that catches my eye and I shine for a second just to become depressed again. My anxieties get worse the more I think about the future..
I thought about starting to stream because of my love of gaming, I started to think about doing a podcast because I love philosophizing and talking about many topics. I started thinking about activism because I am a person of color confronted with racism like everyday. I stand for the LGBTQ+ community and Co-launched marches. The list goes on and on. Yet I’m sitting here writing this words In hopes that someone explains to me why I do this to understand my thought and maybe control or stop to do so. Is there any psychological explanation for the „desire to pursue everything“. What can I do about it? How can I find what fulfills me in a depressing world were social media makes you feel like you ain’t nothing but a piece of shit because you’re not rich or successful by the age of 16 or own your own house at the age of 20...