Many topics I would like to discuss. Motivation for beginning this today has come from a recurring problem in my life which is anger.
Most days are good and I can quickly pull myself out of a negative spiral. My intuition usually reminds me before a situation arises. However there are times when this doesn't work. Today has been one of those.
This I will discuss further. Due to an extremely busy life and needing to sleep soon I will keep this initial post short.
My community where I have grown up is in a beautiful mountain environment. Within me is a strong connection to nature and it's beauty. As time has gone on many people have arrived and the population has tripled since I was a child. There is no resentment but sometimes sadness with destruction of flora and fauna.
Today when leaving work (I work locally) the driver in front of me drove onto the other side of the road to intentionally hit a duck. Luckily the duck narrowly avoided being hit. Instantly I was volatile. I accelerated, overtook and blocked the person's travel. Jumping out of my car I approached the driver. It was a man in his 70's. I am in my 40's, very fit and intimidating if I need to be. If this person was more my match I have little doubt I would have wanted to become physical. I mouthed off at the individual briefly. His response was that he had missed the duck. After a short spat I returned to my car and drove off.
Most times I am angry I regret this. It is poison for the soul and mind. Today however has put me in a conundrum. If the driver had been a male my age and returned any response I didn't like, the situation would have been far more serious. Quite possibly jail. This I would like to discuss further another time.
The problem I am grappling with is I don't think my reaction would be different if I was presented with this again in the future. I love animals. Am I anti-social? My feeling is some people the world would be better without. Most times I lose my temper I can think of many better ways I could have handled it. Today I can't. What if he had killed that animal? Because of his seniority I still would have not been physical but either way I can't seem to let it go. This is most likely due to not having a better solution in this particular scenario. I'm not a person (and think most people would be) that can turn a blind eye to animal cruelty. However anger is never a solution either.
Tomorrow morning I will discuss with my instructor. Try to zen my way through this problem
I practice Martial arts which settles me and keeps me healthy. Being angry is extremely bad for me and frowned upon in my circle of people.
Looking at discussions within this forum has sparked great interest in me and I would like to bring some other topics to the table in future.
Advice, suggestions or analysis will be much appreciated.
Most days are good and I can quickly pull myself out of a negative spiral. My intuition usually reminds me before a situation arises. However there are times when this doesn't work. Today has been one of those.
This I will discuss further. Due to an extremely busy life and needing to sleep soon I will keep this initial post short.
My community where I have grown up is in a beautiful mountain environment. Within me is a strong connection to nature and it's beauty. As time has gone on many people have arrived and the population has tripled since I was a child. There is no resentment but sometimes sadness with destruction of flora and fauna.
Today when leaving work (I work locally) the driver in front of me drove onto the other side of the road to intentionally hit a duck. Luckily the duck narrowly avoided being hit. Instantly I was volatile. I accelerated, overtook and blocked the person's travel. Jumping out of my car I approached the driver. It was a man in his 70's. I am in my 40's, very fit and intimidating if I need to be. If this person was more my match I have little doubt I would have wanted to become physical. I mouthed off at the individual briefly. His response was that he had missed the duck. After a short spat I returned to my car and drove off.
Most times I am angry I regret this. It is poison for the soul and mind. Today however has put me in a conundrum. If the driver had been a male my age and returned any response I didn't like, the situation would have been far more serious. Quite possibly jail. This I would like to discuss further another time.
The problem I am grappling with is I don't think my reaction would be different if I was presented with this again in the future. I love animals. Am I anti-social? My feeling is some people the world would be better without. Most times I lose my temper I can think of many better ways I could have handled it. Today I can't. What if he had killed that animal? Because of his seniority I still would have not been physical but either way I can't seem to let it go. This is most likely due to not having a better solution in this particular scenario. I'm not a person (and think most people would be) that can turn a blind eye to animal cruelty. However anger is never a solution either.
Tomorrow morning I will discuss with my instructor. Try to zen my way through this problem
Looking at discussions within this forum has sparked great interest in me and I would like to bring some other topics to the table in future.
Advice, suggestions or analysis will be much appreciated.