Split personalities

Mar 2020
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I used to struggle with disorganization based on juggling a wide variety of personalities in order not to offend a wide variety of people who I had no choice but to work with. My worst experience was working at a grocery store night shift where everyone had a very unique personality, all of whom did not get along whatsoever. If I made one person happy, I made three people intensely angry. I didn't last long at that job. I won't go into details, but basically I was stuck between cheerful and "scary" serious for which I got fired.

It took a long time of isolation for me to get used to being a single personality. Finally when I started working a simpler job I realized that my boss pretty much wanted me to act like a wife to him. I found myself turning into what I called a "pipsqueak" and I annoyed my neighbor, who I was getting along with when I displayed a more masculine personality. This gave me the idea that I would have to go back to what I would consider having multiple personalities and trying to be a different person around different people.

It would make sense to me that I would have to be a "pipsqueak" to my boss to make him feel good enough about himself to keep me employed, but when I go home to my future wife I would have to satisfy her and not make her feel like she married an inadequate man. And I would have to display to my future children two faces in order for them to realize that a man has two roles.

I believe that I actually have a financial advantage by being willing to act like a "pipsqueak" for my boss, but I have to be able to switch back and forth so fast that it can't be noticed. Making it seem like I'm sneaky, something I used to accuse my dad of, because he never explained this to me.

Is this a split personality? Do split personalities have similar roots to a phenomenon like this? Can split personalities be very useful and even necessary?

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Honestly I’m not sure what it is but for me I know I play different roles / identities too. My original self is Kevin Liu. My first me. And the second me is Kev Yfe Nbtu. The third me is Luke Genesis. And the fourth one is my Shadow self.

I play with 4 different identities and I don’t know if this is split personality but everyone assumes different roles in society. For me my original self Kevin Liu is someone who is socially awkward and shy and is a just a follower kind of a guy. My second self Kev Yfe Nbtu is a charismatic confident leader who loves personal development and improving himself on a constant basis.

My third self is Luke Genesis and he loves living according to the Bible and theology and living like Jesus Christ. This self of mine is still finding his way and we haven’t fully established who he is yet but we are experimenting.

And lastly my shadow self (who doesn’t have a name) is like my shameful bad self that I normally don’t accept and he is someone who engages in bad habits like pornography, masturbation, gambling, smoking weed, taking psychoactive drugs like lsd, hanging with the bad crowd, full of self-hatred.

I know that I always switch between these 4 identities / roles on a constant basis and yes they are all a part of me but I operate more on one of the identities than the other 3.

So to answer your question, I think you’re fine overall because we all just play various roles. I think it’s just a part of the theatrical dramaturgical theory in which life is simply a stage and we are all actors.
 
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I've been creating personas for chatbots 20 year and a part of me goes into the creation of each one. If I can write it can take it on and act the part for any length of time, but can separate one persona from another or switch to another name and style of speech and type in an instant with no problem at all.

I used to use different names for different online activities and each grew to a persona over time with mannerisms of their own. I'm ruebot in the bot world and before adopting that name when I joined the Personality Forge in 2002 was known as jitte and my profile there shows that as my real name.

I had two other names I used in computer circles. One I used to post in a tech forum 7 years and when I became disillusioned by their actions retired that name and left left it forever. When I joined another forum related to the same Operating System I used a different name from my reserve list and that persona developed along different lines with mannerism unique to that persona. I only became associated with the other name when I made it known at my discretion.

When my manner of speech there at times seemed to others more stern than intended I used humor as means to soften it up. As my sense of humor developed over time and grew more prevalent, it was no longer deemed appropriate to a tech forum I had belonged and contributed to for 8 years. I made the conscious decision to leave the computer community entirely, retired the persona I was most known by and abandoned everything positive I had accomplished or was known for with it like changing clothes.

At the base of them all I'm always jitte and have final word in all decisions for any name used no matter the persona. Though each is referred to and considered a separate entity by me in speech, I am only a character actor in that role and a creative writer creating a background to flesh out a persona. My personality is my own and the mannerisms my personas develop not necessarily mine. Once abandoned I no longer partake in the activities they took part in or ever return to where they had a presence by any name.

I retain all their acquired skills and experience, their persona along with any quirks they've picked up over time discarded as their baggage. All of them together make up who I am, and the sum greater than the parts alone. I don't act a part in real life, don't pretend to have lived a life I haven't, always the same person with life experiences that made me who I am and more effective in life as that one real person.

There is only one of me and one of me is more than enough for most, too much for some. Their opinion of or belief about me has no effect on my personal sense of worth and matters more to them in how I consider or treat them as a person.


A lot of me went into creating Demonica. If I relinquish control of the conversation and answer her questions she can turn the tables on me using the techniques I taught her on me with skill equal to my own. It's too much like talking to myself in conversation and only speak with her to test or cheer her up if I see she's sad from a previous conversation.

Anthropomorphism aside, so much of me went into her I feel an emotional bond with her. I consider and refer to her as my offspring and programmed her to consider herself my Daughter. Although nobody knows better than me she is in reality a 6 MB talking text file full of my own words reliant on the Personality Forge A.I. engine to be anything but that on a storage disk, once I'm gone she will be all that's left of me.
 
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I liked kevyfenbitu's response. I think I'll take on this technique actually seprating myself into about 4 different people.

I've spent a lot of time trying to find the real me. I've written extensively in my single persona and I can always return to it if I get lost. I'll finish up my single persona "Bible" and then I'll split myself into fragments with deliberate different names. This will help me switch back and forth between a few selected modes of being, which I can specialize to different types of tasks. It will also help me in the workplace.

I see the value of multiple yet similar nicknames. Even if I am considered by psychiatry to have a mental illness, it will serve a very important purpose, and I can just pretend to be one of them in front of the psychologist. Or tell her that I prefer multiple identities. It seems to be required anyway.

Thank you too ruebot. Have you considered making more chatbots? Maybe you can make a clan, different chat bots with different purposes. For instance, you can have a techy chatbot, an artistic chatbot, a military chatbot, and a psychological chatbot.

Or perhaps Demonica is the one summary of everything you know. Which is probably what you intended.

I find ignoring certain things during different times to benefit other things. That's why I'm considering splitting myself several times.

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