How would I even start? I have high IQ, Overexcitabilities (OEs) - I have high developmental potential (positive disintegration), ASD, ADHD and I Am both neurotic and have neurotic personality traits. I suffer from anxieties and I have severe depression! I have also Existential/Philosophical OCD... I Am also extreme rational person! I started to have weird philosophical considerations at 17 and at age 21 I experienced severe Existential Crisis and I suffer from profound Existential Boredom! I visited like 1 million websites in 1 year to read about 1 philosophical concept (I can't tell you about) you don't want to know anyway - it is depressing!!!
I heard that highly intelligent people tend to rationalize their emotions and understand them very well e.g. from Evolutionary/Psychological/Social/Game Theory standpoints. But they have utterly atrocious emotional hygiene! Question is how do highly intelligent people deal with emotions, I understand them and why they are happening! While (in general) high IQ can help with e.g. negative "emotions" for example: seeing oneself more accurately - like low self-esteem. But it can work in both ways! Especially high IQ and ADHD is special kind of hell!
I just don't know exactly how to get rid of them!!! Also problem is since: I tried e.g. to suppress them and it is awhile they are happening! And by reinforcement etc. they are now strongly rooted in! It would be too complex to explain - like millions of things, not even speaking figuratively!!! So I Am not looking for personal advice per se, but rather for scientific studies, or psychology articles etc. so I can learn more about this predicament! It is ludicrous I can't even ask for help, because I don't have money to pay psychologist! It would take 1000 hours min. to explain basics, even if I optimized my speech and spoken quickly... I read both literally and figuratively about everything that exists!!! I have both macro and micro problems, and there are millions of latter...
I tried psychologist before, but talking about my problems didn't help me at all and it is way too complicated for a traditional psychologist anyways! Although I will visit one with degree in Philosophy, I tried that once and at least they could understand... Anyways Dabrowski recommends Autopsychotherapy for people with "high development potential" for this reason... But I'll need every help I can get!!! I need learn about everything that exists and even that doesn't exists (I have Need for Cognition) to experience beauty and elevate myself to another level of existence to survive (it is complicated Philosophy, geniuses escape Existential Boredom like that)! Positive disintegration - Wikipedia It is crazy! Every second feels like I would be in a war (not even joking) attacked by literally everything that exists from every angle and every permutation of it!!! Perhaps because people with OEs have hyperactive neural system and are constantly in state of fight-or-flight state, thus I have also problems with a lot of stress! While I try not to stress, but it is very difficult!!!
So how do highly intelligent people deal with emotions??? I read many articles about emotions etc. And while I know a lot, I have problems applying these solutions to my problems! As I said they are way too complex to be solved easily and too many of them, it is not even possible to solve them all/fully... I literally know most of these emotions are total nonsense and wrong and yet they are annoying me years and it was getting worse and worse awhile... I should have done with them something sooner, but I was way too ashamed and shy, because I Am programmed to survival... I have also insane OCD! While I literally in 3 days went through so much progress and I experienced cathasis, it is like 1 solved (even main one) 999 999 to go... I watched too many TV shows (because I have 6 years strong chronic pain) and I Am too emotional and sensitive person - I felt/experienced literally everything that happened to every single person that ever lived from ancient times from every possible perspective, well not really, but still it is crazy!!!!!! And I over-analyze things and get lost in tangents...
I have also various Executive Disfunctions and chronic pain and I Am chronically bored to death and I can't do anything literally ATM! Nothing entertains me more than watching a wall anyways (even if I could do anything) well that changed, I love learning and thinking, but it was like that awhile! Still not sure if I Am entertained by it, but it feels good! But because I have chronic pain past 6 years, I can't even read and I have blurred vision! I Am struggling just to survive right now... As I have nothing to do, so I experience "Hyperbolic Discouting" and even if I make progress, I always return to 0! E.g. one day I feel down and because I need to be consistently moving forward, otherwise I get to where I started, which is painful at best!! Since I didn't overcome this in almost 6 years...
And I have problem with motivation, because existential boredom, nothing motivates me. I would need someone to live in my body and control me, while I would be in hibernation and after my chronic pain is no more, I would resume control... Problem is I really need to do something and well I have strong drive now, after I evolved to a new level of existence (but again I Am motivated for the future, but not the near future!!! and my drive is never permanent, it is always shaky and questioned from every level of existence!!!) but still it is difficult at best, I can walk 1km barely and I have also RSI... This must be most annoying situation possible imaginable, I believe in principle of QM that everything which isn't forbidden by rules will happen... So absurd!!!
I heard that highly intelligent people tend to rationalize their emotions and understand them very well e.g. from Evolutionary/Psychological/Social/Game Theory standpoints. But they have utterly atrocious emotional hygiene! Question is how do highly intelligent people deal with emotions, I understand them and why they are happening! While (in general) high IQ can help with e.g. negative "emotions" for example: seeing oneself more accurately - like low self-esteem. But it can work in both ways! Especially high IQ and ADHD is special kind of hell!
I just don't know exactly how to get rid of them!!! Also problem is since: I tried e.g. to suppress them and it is awhile they are happening! And by reinforcement etc. they are now strongly rooted in! It would be too complex to explain - like millions of things, not even speaking figuratively!!! So I Am not looking for personal advice per se, but rather for scientific studies, or psychology articles etc. so I can learn more about this predicament! It is ludicrous I can't even ask for help, because I don't have money to pay psychologist! It would take 1000 hours min. to explain basics, even if I optimized my speech and spoken quickly... I read both literally and figuratively about everything that exists!!! I have both macro and micro problems, and there are millions of latter...
I tried psychologist before, but talking about my problems didn't help me at all and it is way too complicated for a traditional psychologist anyways! Although I will visit one with degree in Philosophy, I tried that once and at least they could understand... Anyways Dabrowski recommends Autopsychotherapy for people with "high development potential" for this reason... But I'll need every help I can get!!! I need learn about everything that exists and even that doesn't exists (I have Need for Cognition) to experience beauty and elevate myself to another level of existence to survive (it is complicated Philosophy, geniuses escape Existential Boredom like that)! Positive disintegration - Wikipedia It is crazy! Every second feels like I would be in a war (not even joking) attacked by literally everything that exists from every angle and every permutation of it!!! Perhaps because people with OEs have hyperactive neural system and are constantly in state of fight-or-flight state, thus I have also problems with a lot of stress! While I try not to stress, but it is very difficult!!!
So how do highly intelligent people deal with emotions??? I read many articles about emotions etc. And while I know a lot, I have problems applying these solutions to my problems! As I said they are way too complex to be solved easily and too many of them, it is not even possible to solve them all/fully... I literally know most of these emotions are total nonsense and wrong and yet they are annoying me years and it was getting worse and worse awhile... I should have done with them something sooner, but I was way too ashamed and shy, because I Am programmed to survival... I have also insane OCD! While I literally in 3 days went through so much progress and I experienced cathasis, it is like 1 solved (even main one) 999 999 to go... I watched too many TV shows (because I have 6 years strong chronic pain) and I Am too emotional and sensitive person - I felt/experienced literally everything that happened to every single person that ever lived from ancient times from every possible perspective, well not really, but still it is crazy!!!!!! And I over-analyze things and get lost in tangents...
I have also various Executive Disfunctions and chronic pain and I Am chronically bored to death and I can't do anything literally ATM! Nothing entertains me more than watching a wall anyways (even if I could do anything) well that changed, I love learning and thinking, but it was like that awhile! Still not sure if I Am entertained by it, but it feels good! But because I have chronic pain past 6 years, I can't even read and I have blurred vision! I Am struggling just to survive right now... As I have nothing to do, so I experience "Hyperbolic Discouting" and even if I make progress, I always return to 0! E.g. one day I feel down and because I need to be consistently moving forward, otherwise I get to where I started, which is painful at best!! Since I didn't overcome this in almost 6 years...
And I have problem with motivation, because existential boredom, nothing motivates me. I would need someone to live in my body and control me, while I would be in hibernation and after my chronic pain is no more, I would resume control... Problem is I really need to do something and well I have strong drive now, after I evolved to a new level of existence (but again I Am motivated for the future, but not the near future!!! and my drive is never permanent, it is always shaky and questioned from every level of existence!!!) but still it is difficult at best, I can walk 1km barely and I have also RSI... This must be most annoying situation possible imaginable, I believe in principle of QM that everything which isn't forbidden by rules will happen... So absurd!!!