Anxiety and panic attack

Jul 2020
I was talking to one of my aunt yesterday.She has a lot of money but uses a very cheap phone.One time I said,lets go..I will buy an iphone for you.She said okay.I told her that I don’t have any money and when I will have money I will give her iphone.I said that for being nice.I don’t want to give her iphone.She has a lot of money but doesn’t use them.She hasn’t gifted me anything ever.I said that out of nowhere that day.
Now I am having panic attack thinking what if she wants that phone when I will have money.I really don’t want to be used by her or anyone.
Mar 2020
If she doesn't buy it for herself. She doesn't value it more than the money it would cost.

A trade is... I value this more than my money. and the other person says. I value your money more than this thing that I have.

A gift is I have something that I would value your gratefulness and kindness for. and the other person says. I can be kind and grateful to you if you give me that thing.

If none of this is necessary a trade does not take place.

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