Aimlessness?

Mar 2020
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US
I feel really good establishing joy, peace, patience, kindness, self-control.

Do I play a violent strategy game and wreck it? I'm afraid of what I will do next. Now I'm dropping hard. There's one thing to do but it requires serious driving across two towns, and it's dark. Feeling fear. Nothing I can really do. Call the crisis line again? Puzzled with no puzzle. Only direction to go is down? No! Please no! Well, here it goes. So grateful I had this moment.

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