I am sorry for you. I am sorry for your family who loved you, but you left behind who are trying to figure out what they did wrong and how they could have helped you. I feel sorry for your friends who loved you and are wondering what they could have done or been to have helped you. I feel sorry for your teachers and clergy who feel like they failed you. Please come back, you owe it to your parents who loved you and raised you, your friends who stood beside you in the worst of times, your teachers who did their best to teach you. I know, my brother killed himself. It is not something to joke about, and i encourage you to talk to your family, friends, teachers, clergy, counselors, or anyone else you trust to go to. Do not cheapen your life this way, you are worth way more than this...
Good luck, and let us know how it goes,
Ivery